Nicole Kidman Opens Up About Grief and Coping with the Loss of Her Parents

Nicole Kidman is still reeling and trying to battle through the loss of her beloved parents — her dad, Antony, passed in 2014, and her mom, Janelle, died last September.

“Life is, whew, it’s definitely a journey,” says Nicole, 57.

“It hits you as you get older. It’s a wake-up at 3 a.m. crying and gasping kind of thing. If you’re in it and not numbing yourself to it. And I’m in it. Fully in it.”

The passing of her mother forced her to miss the Venice Film Festival, where she won Best Actress honors for her new film “Babygirl.”

“It’s a hard road,” she says. “I’m hanging in there. Everything is great with work, but I wish my mama was here.”

Losing your parents is a full circle of life event, but the grief is real and lasting. Nicole finds that her husband, Keith Urban, and the daughters they’re raising — Sunday, 16, and Faith, 13 — are keeping her grounded.

One day when Faith saw her crying over the death of her dad, she was “so little that she didn’t know whether I was acting or not,” Nicole recalls. “She said, ‘Mummy acting now?’ And the older one was like, ‘No, mummy not acting now.’ ”

The moment helped Nicole realize she needed to focus on moving forward. “Before you know it, you’re pushing through — and by pushing through for them, you’re getting better. But it goes on. That natural line of how it’s meant to go, the parents, then you, then the children … that’s the natural course.”